july havent been that much of a smooth sailing month, and august has just begun.
please, dont make this another rough month for me.



lemme tell you what's on my mind..
i have this high chance of forwarding two ICA based modules,
and there's no way nor exam papers for me to push my marks up
as i have been failing their tests for this two modules.
for starters, i know im not stupid, no one is stupid anyway
lazy? nah, more like too preocuppied to actually sit down and do daily revision as thats the key to score for ICA based modules
as they provide you with no semestral exam papers for you to actually mug for.
right now, i only have 2 exam papers for this sem,
and im done for almost all my modules,
i dont have to attend lessons,except for biostats , one more test to go
argh, im so freaking scared , i dont wish to forward any modules.
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

as for right now, im lost.

a map, any map would be greatly appreciated.

Im not the first lost person to feel this way. Lost people just want a way out; they'll follow any foolish trail.

sometimes it seems like we're all waiting. no matter what you call it.

we're all waiting.

the conversations that im most afraid to have are those i need to have.

They almost always come as a relief. I have danced around this questions, avoiding relief.

at times, one realises when we've taken things for granted.

but then we do know and feel that we are being taken for granted too, sometimes.

well, being needed felt great while it lasted.

today was a sad bad long day.

ive been having bad dreams these nights, that it scares me.

so bad.so bad.so scary.

i need some warmth over here.

where art thou?

our daily convos, i need them.

where art thou?

why am i avoiding you

when i keep asking myself

where art thou?

why am i running away again?

where art thou?

BOOH, i had a terrible thursday.

oh mama, adik sedih

adik sad.

and yah an sms from shiqah, been meeting her lately. sebelum tido, bace doa, remember that was what you told me when you saw me that sad sad night? do the same thing okie. finally got to talk to nina, just got off the phone with her. i miss this two girls badly.and i love them. my hols are coming, we'll go blading and swimming soon, promise.

then, another alarming sms from her, you know who you are my dear. patience aite, and yeah, im going to push you to work harder, school's gonna be ok. and dont worry , pray hard my sayang. you know i love you and will always be here for you.

now, when the beach boys sang , dont worry baby, it doesnt work anymore. there's something to be worried about.

when asked, which side wins? mitch albom said ,

"love wins. love always wins"

faith, we all gotta have faith.